A DiaRy 0f a gUy bY é nAmé Jóéý

2004-07-13T20:14:00.000+08:00

2009hrs

Saw this qn at a forum.. should be quite familar with everyone.. which is, what would you do if u know tomorrow you would die? or what would u do if u know tomorrow is the end of the world??

Such a classic question.. surely, the answer would be classic also. Pple would reply by saying they would spend it with the person they like the most,confess to the person they like and blar blar blar...

I don't see the need to do that..

For my answer, i would surely reply, I would fight for my life to stay alive... not only mine.. I would fight for my life with my dearest person to stay alive together.. I wouldn't say i would want to accompany the last hours with the person i love, confess or whatever other shit..

It seemed strange.. Pple often have the answer.. which is to love the person they love more, confess or others... I'm strange that why don't they apply it to their daily life??Spend more time with their dearest members and so on... For what they know is, ya.. Life is very fragile.. i'm sure they know it.. but y don't they see the need to spend each day as though it's the last day of their life??... someone tell me....

2004-07-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

2228hrs

Have been quite bz these few days.. spending everyday with dear... yup.. am happy with her every moment.. spending time with her is definitely my happiest moment...

Everyday's the same outcome.. happy.. regardless of arguments or what.. we argue for the same common reason.. just because of love... ya.. i guess she and i know abt it..

Took 172 today to CCK, to get the pink color tamagotchi for her.. she like the pink color tamagotchi pretty much.. so i had to get it for her no matter what.. as long as it's within my reach..
Along the jouney, the bus went past the stretch of cemetery... It's not as frightening as what what we normally see.. Normal sterotype will be surely something's in there.. which is ghost.. those are just sterotypes created by stories, shows, movies... why not look at it in another point of view.. I've looked at it in an appreciative approach.. and ya.. it's a real nice and calm place at the day time... u can see the clouds and those clear grasslands..

Know the sterotypes, and never to follow it too much.. that's what i've learnt last few weeks in my IS class.. i'm just applying to it..

2004-07-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

2302hrs

Pple often say that true love is blar blar blar... i dunno.. for me, i think i've found mine... words are too meaningless to be said out.. only looking at each other expresses the feelings... strength, yup.. there it goes.. u'll have countless of it.. from the bottom of your heart, nothing becomes too difficult, as long you're doing it for the sake of the person u love.. you'll be missing her for every second of your life..

She will become the most selfish person on earth.. taking every moment of your thinking.. occupying your thoughts.. even by the means of seeing her for a minute just to know that she's alright...

This strength that i'm mentioning will be at it's greatest peak when you know something happened to her, when she's sad, angry, pissed, upset or anything... use it wisely.. use it to do anything to cheer her up.. trust me.. you have the power to do it...

I dunno.. dunno how to describe.. this kind of feeling is really.. really beyond my powers to describe it.. though she say i'm good with words.. this time, i'm really defeated.. i dunno how to describe the feeling of true love.. maybe, it's just only between me and her... only both of us know it...

2004-07-03T14:35:00.000+08:00

1433hrs

Sat.. diahorrea day for me.. dunno y.. must have ate something wrong yesterday... hmm.. nothing much to do today.. expect to rot and rest a bit today.. but tonite goin for spidy man 2 tonite...

hmm.. got this from joan's blog.. decided to take the test..

What Color is Your Brain?
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BLUE:

At work or in school: I like to be with people, sharing with them, inspiring them, and helping them. I work and learn best when I can take into consideration people and the human element. I flourish in an atmosphere of cooperation.

With friends: I always look for perfect love. I am very romantic, and I enjoy doing thoughtful things for others. I am affectionate, supportive and a good listener.

With family: I like to be happy and loving. I am very sensitive to rejection from my family and to family conflicts. I really like to be well thought of and need frequent reassurance. I love intimate talks and warm feelings.

How true is it?? it's up for u to figure out.. for me is quite true..

2004-07-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

2356hrs

It's been 2 weeks and goin 2 days since i'm with her... nothing's much about the feelings... it's all about missing.. missing.. and happiness, pure happiness.... i've never met a person whom could make me miss her for all the time.. this is happiness..

We've made many promises to it.. ya.. believe me, when joey say so, he means it... i'm going to make her my one and only one...

Just came back from her house.. enjoyed today.. her parents went to malaysia to attend a funeral, i really feel like, ya.. haha... living in her house and we're the only ones... just like a married young couple with 2 dogs in the house.. except for his younger brother.. who's not bad too.. adds laughter and more fun to the house..

Words were beginning to say, as far as her parents are concerned... somethings just have to be mentioned.. regarding she and her past bf..

But i've decided... words are nothing.. action speaks louder than words.. that's why i rather do than to say.. I've got to prove to them that i'm really serious abt their daughter.. and they will not regret it..

Pple say that gals are sensitive.. indeed, she's the kind of gal that i want.. sensitive in the right way, though she claims that she's a little too paranoid and get jealous at times.. well, i like it... coz only that would spur me to like her even more...

Love you dear..... Missing u now.. every monent.... every second...

2004-06-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

2241hrs

Love is just like a cheeze cake... the feeling's especially nice when u eat it with the one whom u like.. trust me, look into her eyes, feed her and eat it together.. let the cheeze melt in yr mouth.. let the aftermath of the taste do the job.. Tat feeling is great....

2004-06-21T20:18:00.000+08:00

2018hrs

Euro fever is here for dunno how many weeks... yea.. watched some of the matches...nothing much as compared to the world cup.. the feeling's not that exciting..

Hmmm... dunno what to write.. just managed to lend back the laptop from friend... lucky for me.. if not i've to go to school to use the computer...

Strange... missing someone when u're in a relationship and not in one is so different.. the feeling is just so different..in fact, the feeling is much much deeper.. in fact it can't be compared...

But one thing good abt it is that you'll definately become much much much more happier..

Argh.. dunno what am i writing.. the format is so strange......

2004-06-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

2211hrs

Finally, yup, a new chapter of my life has began, and i'm ready to accept it... Future looks really bright between the two of us... yup... 15th June 2004, that's the day whereby me and her is officially together.. i can say that she's the one whom i think i should really like, which i am now, really deeply in love with her.. She's the one who let me know what is the right thing to do..

And i've managed to let go of the person which i've been hanging on to for the past 4 years? which i should say..

For that person whom i've been hanging on, i wish u really good luck in the future... hope you'll find the "one"....

ya.. one thing.. i'm gonna miss blogging for quite sometime... laptop's returning to friend tomorrow.. no more comp..

2004-06-12T13:23:00.000+08:00

1323hrs

This week has been a strange and maybe, good week for me?.. It seems to be passing very fast every moment... and i've just ended part of a chapter in my life.. by giving her up.. yea.. and i'm glad to start the new chapter...

Jolin's songs has been in my song list for this few weeks.. i've began to more and more like her.. thinking of jolin makes me think of another person...

I've started my experiment.. but just on a trial phrase by ya.. just regrowing the vero cells that we've done it one year ago.. now just getting the momentum to grow cells again.. not to mention.. a lot of cockups.. like getting the wrong conc. of solutions, sterilization by spraying ethanol, ya.. but forgot to clean and wipe it up with tissue paper, all those shits.. hope the cells are growing well.. haha

I've always thought that last year, during my 17th year goin to 18th year is my best year, whereby i experienced a lot of things.. Nope.. i'm wrong.. or rather i should say that this year, 18th goin to 19th.. is goin to be a great year.. whereby i've learn alot ... in terms of relationship... well, lets just hope things continue to carry on as good as now...

2004-06-07T02:57:00.000+08:00

0257hrs

Feeling real sour now.. real real sour.. just somesort of quarrelled with her?? i dunno.. i may be too serious when it may seem that she's just kidding.. well, it also shows one thing.. Joey can't multitask.. really can't focus the attention on 2 things.. I was doin my summary review.. when this thing happened.. maybe i just can't adjust my seriousness for the work to replying her msges.. u sux, joey..

whatever it is.. i'm getting more and more like the joey that's few years ago.. so pessimist abt life, so fed up with everything..

I began to take things seriously.. especially when it comes to relationship matters.I want to be selfish.. I know what i want.. But i know if i would to be selfish to myself, i would hurt myself indirectly too.. Be it or not be it.. i know i'd be hurt.. i've to think of a solution quick....

I've nv been so bad tempered like what i am for the past few years....I dun like to show temper.. especially to my friends, not to mention to the person i like.. for what's happening to me now, i really dunno.. maybe i'm just fedup with everything.. fedup with myself.. and myself..

2004-06-05T03:56:00.000+08:00

0356hrs

It's been a day for me.. strange thing is that even normal good friends like hui fang and pamela would have noticed that my voice sounded sian.. and asked me out for a drink.. thank u guys for that..though u guys may not know abt my blog.. whateverrrr..

i've abt to finalised my project protocols with fushui.. yup.. dissection.. guessed i've really got to do it on my own.. which is to kill it.. for the past few mice experiments i've NV even killed a mice be4..

We've included 2 female rats, 8 female mice in this experiment.. ya.. sad thing is.. ya.. most would be used for it..

Emotions were up and down for me this week.. i've tried to be serious,crappy, whatever it is.. there's still really somesort of things which makes me feel abt...

Have heard this from radio, or somewhere these few days..

Is it worth to be loving someone who loves u lesser than u love her??
Or is it better to be loving someone who loves u more than u actually know it is??

Maybe i've finally got the answer to what i really want in a relationship.. tat is constant communication.. tat's not a matter of being possessive or childish.. that's the normal thing a couple would do.. imagine long-distance r/s.. without communications the r/s would be dead.. this is certainly something which i'm gonna stick on to my position.. and firmly...

realised tat i've been neglecting my family nowadays.. since long have i ever had a good chat with my mum.. not to say my dad.. for years... well,i dun really need a happy family, as long i've a partner who cares abt me..tat's all i want.. is it so difficult to find someone who can do that??

If the day comes when if i finally decided to let u go, i'll say this to u...

I only know that i loved u more than anyone has ever loved u be4... by giving u up, i will continue giving the same amount of love to other pple.. but u will nv receive the same amount of love from other pple that i've given to u..

2004-06-03T03:45:00.000+08:00

0346hrs

Tired le, goin sleep after this..

Woke up at 2pm for this year's vesek day... basically, spent my day rotting and basically, ya.... rotting... yea.. and i went to my grandma's house... Long time nv went there le.. shd be abt 3 to 4 months le ba.. granny's still the same old granny, sitting at tat chair, watching tv.. haha.. yea.. had dinner there..

Aunt was a great cook.. it's been a long time since i eat such good home cooked meals.. my mum's cooking wasn't tat good as compared to hers.. Aunt's fish.. wa.. superb.. the sauce was goodie... yup..

so long since i've enjoyed a home-cooked meal...

yea.. managed to rush out the project protocols finally..later, ya.. goin to school.. hope i will be able to wake up ... nite joey..

2004-06-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

0004hrs

today i felt like an airport.. haha.. as in i was let off aeroplane two times.. in a day.. well, heck it.. it's okay.. at least i've not reach the place then just to know that the event is off.. hahaha...

Rotted at home.. supposed to meet mrs tang for the project discussion.. but due to some unforseen circumstences, the meeting has to be postphoned to a later date.. well, it also buys me more time... for the project.. i need to get ready the materials and protocols for the whole experiment..

Realised something pretty common among topics which those elderly adults that u don't normally see will ask us "kids" during events.. such as gatherings, chinese new years and so on.. the normal polite qn they'll ask is.. " oh.. grown bigger le wooo"(as if i won't grow), "Aiyo, so fast poly third year liao ah??" last time still sec sch..(argh.. i won't fail.. or rather ur mind is failing u), "eeee... last time still gina kia(kids) running here and there.. time past so fast.. (yaya..)oh ya.. still got this qn.."where are u studying now??"(every year they won't fail to ask this).

whatever.. we just answer them back the same answer.. with this smile. yayaya.. haha.. whatever... perhaps it has become some sort of a procedure that we've to do everytime..

oh ya.. it's vesek day already.. is it spelt like tat? i dunno.. hmm.. boring.. sure to get waken up tml by my mum... to ask me eh wanna go pray pray? and to receive the same answer from me.. No... everyyear is the same thing... just let me sleep.. can??.. i don't mean to be unfilial or rude.. it's just that i think sleeping can be more useful than going to pray for something which i don't usually think will work...

2004-05-31T16:50:00.000+08:00

1651hrs

30/05/04

was the day.. the day for me.. haha.. real special day for me.. yup.. may it mark the beginning of a new level of step b/t me and her.. yup

watched The day after tomorrow.. nice movie.. for i was controlling my bladder all along the way in the cold cinema.. with the cold effects enough to torture u throughout it.Was abt our the world entering the ice-age again through the period.. how pple suffer,how they unite and all so on...

it brings me this thinking again.. how the mankind rules.. from ice-age to human being starting to explore out technology,stone age, evolution of technology, to the beginning of the showing off and competition of greater technology of each and every country... it beginning from ice-age to simple tools,technology to greater technology.

I believe that one day when human being reach to the peak of it's advance in science, everything in the world would end.. somehow either by the jealousy of individuals, high-tech war, strange development, viruses, or even the cause of nature, like what the show tells us... it all begin with the fault of the developing technology.. pple are greedy.. they play too much with it. and for one day.. this may happen.. the world may just end tomorrow...

2004-05-29T16:32:00.000+08:00

1634hrs

Life's been quite a new phrase for me.. something which i've quite nv tasted before...
It's not sad, it's not happy too.. all i can say is i got this sense of confused feelings lingering inside my mind all these days.. i'm getting confused day by day...

hope the conclusion will come for me the nxt few days....

The human brain really works in an amazing way... such a small matter could generate all the different kinds of feeling.. u look at a raw brain.. you could wonder how come it can be soo wonderful, as in that particular brain could possibily change the whole world..

Sometimes, when walking on the street, you hear this car horning at u. You look back and found that it's your friend or someone u know in it.. He'll just smile and wave at u. And drove past. As usual, you'll smile back at him.

What's that for? It's just an act of politeness.. Well, in another way, you could think it's damn bo liao.. just horn and smile at each other.. y do that? a horn shdn't be horned anyhow..

But in another way, you'll oftened feel rude as in the person u know just drive past you, without even trying an effort to greet you.

strange huh..

What's wrong with the human brain?? y think so many?? y are there so many points of view...or perhaps.. i'm thinking too much...

well, it's nice to catch up with the same old usual knowledge that i've learnt some time ago.. look at it again, i still find it fun...

got this from the net..

Coca-Cola was originally green.

The most common name in the world is Mohammed.

The name of all the continents end with the same
letter that they start with.

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.

There are two credit cards for every person in the
United States.

TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using
the letters only on one row of the keyboard.

Women blink nearly twice as much as men!

You can't kill yourself by holding your breath.

It is impossible to lick your elbow.

People say "Bless you" when you sneeze because when
you sneeze,your heart stops for a millisecond.

It is physically impossible for pigs to look up into
the sky.

The "sixth sick sheik's sixth sheep's sick" is said to
be the toughest tongue twister in the English
language.

If you sneeze too hard, you can fracture a rib. If you
try to suppress a sneeze, you can rupture a blood
vessel in your head or neck and die.

Each king in a deck of playing cards represents great
king from history.
Spades - King David
Clubs - Alexander the Great,
Hearts - Charlemagne
Diamonds - Julius Caesar.

111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321

If a statue of a person in the park on a horse has
both front legs in the air, the person died in battle.
If the horse has one front leg in the air, the person
died as a result of wounds received in battle.If the
horse has a ll four legs on the ground, the person
died of natural causes.

What do bullet proof vests, fire escapes, windshield
wipers and laserprinters all have in common?
Ans. - All invented by women.

Question - This is the only food that doesn't spoil.
What is this?
Ans. - Honey

A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out.

A snail can sleep for three years.

All polar bears are left handed.

American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating
one olive from each salad served in first-class.

Butterflies taste with their feet.

Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.

In the last 4000 years, no new animals have been
domesticated.

On average, people fear spiders more than they do
death.

Shakespeare invented the word 'assassination' and
'bump'.

Stewardesses is the longest word typed with only the
left hand.

The ant always falls over on its right side when
intoxicated.

The electric chair was invented by a dentist.

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps
out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.

Rats multiply so quickly that in 18 months, two rats
could have over million descendants.

Wearing headphones for just an hour will increase the
bacteria in your ear by 700 times.

The cigarette lighter was invented before the match.

Most lipstick contains fish scales.

Like fingerprints, everyone's tongue print is
different

And finally 99% of people who read this will try to
lick their elbow.

whatever.... but really... i didn't lick it.. i'm that 1%..

2004-05-28T02:00:00.000+08:00

0202hrs

5 days since i've last writen.. seems to be quite long to me..

My comp's spoilt, and i'm using the laptop that my friend had lent me now...
Real pathatic for me...
Realised that a day without computer can really make my life moodless.. really boring..

too much to think... too lazy to write it down..

Whatever... just to say.. i'm still alive.. happy and still kicking..

2004-05-23T02:48:00.000+08:00

0248hrs

It's been a week for me.. whereby i've felt so stressed up by the project... though no one's really forcing me.. i've been feeling a lot of stress from it.. coz i really wanna do well for it.. but just it's some sort of difficult...

Besides that.. i've been lacking of sleep.. really... it's either few hours of sleep a day, or i've had my sleep disturbed by my mum.. for she's not working for abt 3 days this week!.. she'd just open my door.. play some loud TV.Just don't want me to sleep so late..

Well, i dun blame her.. for she don't really know what time i'm sleeping..

Stress+lack of sleep.. you'll see the Joey u nv wanted to see.. he'll become somesort evil... or rather stupid... often saying something or doing something out of the ordinary...

For instinct.. i was so blur this week that i almost lost my EZ-link for 4 times!!.. almost lost my hp.. left it in e cab.. but luckly i remembered it in time...

Really a stressing week... well, at least i know that the stress's doin me bad.. i'm goin to really be relax... at least not to put so much pressure on myself...

Ps.. for those pple whom i offended this week, pls forgive me, for i'm not the usual Joey this week...

y i've realised this all sort of things... it's only becoz...

Today!!.. i've had my beauty sleep.. 10hrs undisturbed sleep..
Woke up.. the feeling was really different from the mid-week...

Really refreshed and clear...

Oh ya.. Troy was a nice movie.. really nice.. catch it!

2004-05-22T16:27:00.000+08:00

1627hrs

First time in my life.. that i really don't know what i am doing...

i'm really lost... i dun wanna give up... e reason for those words that i say to u is juz.... juz becoz that u're simply too important to me... just can't bare to lose u..

but i wanted yr attention... yr attention to let me know tat u actually care for me too...

Just tat simple.. nothing much...

u may say that it's getting tiring and frustrating for me... yea.. i agree too... but it's nt frustrated at u... i'm getting tired and frustrating on myself..on why are u so damn important to me? y shd i really be forcing so much pressure on u?? why am i doing all that??

To me now, the best answer is.. i still love u....

2004-05-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

2315hrs

Gonna meet mrs tang tml... shitty... gotta give her some results at least... if not, i think i'm gonna get screwed ... not that she's not a nasty person. But'i think i've offended her be4 during the first year due to my playfuless... i've been rather rude to her.. so this time, she's my project supervisor.. what shd i do??.. hmm... problem.. problem ah...

Feeling stressed over the summarys of those articles.. but.. after i called her, wow.. i dunno if it's her Xi Xin or what, sensitive? whatever it's called.. she somehow know how to cheer me up.. feeling great after that!My mind's far more relaxed and clearer after hearing her voice.. She's back to normal le!! the normal one who will suan back me, cheer me up with what i like abt her.. yea..found out le...

She the one.. yea she's the one.. who i needs the most...

This week's horoscope is very true for bth cancer and leo..
I just pick out the more important part.. hee..

Cancerians of this week, to be ready to accept new relationship, for it may be the one that u're chasing for!!(haha.. it's hinting u leh.., dun give up an extinct item!!..)Some things shd be decided quickly,if not, it may be bad to both party!..(you're nv know if the guy get hurts too much by nonsenstical thinking and as a result of that, hurting both u and him)..

whatever it is, ha!.. a word for u.. even a book knows how yr life shd be ruled!!.. or rather.. even yr horoscope tells u that!..you're a clever gal, u shd know what to do...don't disappoint me by being foolish to reject yr true feelings.. haha

Now for Leo...

No matter what,with hard work, you'll get yr results.. even though this period of time can get pretty tough( yea.. 4 years), In relationships, i may be too emotional, thinking too much(YEA!!! i am!!.. shit me..) Having enough sleep will kick that habbit off.(YEA too!!.. dun disturb my beauty sleep).Taking frequent oil-fried food will cause yr skin to "protest"(YEA!!! true!!.. shitty pimples popping up again.. so irritating!!)get a change of diet....

hmm.. for the first part of the Leo's.. i really hope.. really really hope i'll be reaping the sows of what i've done...

Not that i hope for anything... it's just that chance that i'm hoping for.....

2004-05-19T01:42:00.000+08:00

0142hrs

I hate myself for thinking too much.. that's the quote of the day for me... really.. sometimes... thinking too much or being too sensitive can be really bad.... badddd.... how.. how to change.... change to the right amt of sensitivity... y must god give me such sensitive mind... y ... y ...y ...??

I'll change.. I surely will.. This i promise myself.. I'll change... for my own good... goin to add this to my new year resolutions.. not too late huh... which is...

Learn to control the sensitivity level.. know when to be sensitive and when not to!!!..

Remember that.. joey...

2004-05-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

0023hrs

Did nothing much... nothing's really much for me today.. except waking up late, cleaning up my fan and buying a new toothbrush for myself..

When.......

Realising that a day without being with that person can be so boring...really boring....time seems to past by so slow...

But time can pass by so fast with that person...it's unfair lo.... things can be only be so sweet with that person's company and things can't be that sweet without that person....

That person comes to yr mind countlessly in a day... u seems to be waiting for her msges, her presence makes u feel such a warm and comfortable thing.

That person's smile can cheer u up, hearing that person's name makes u awake, finding out things abt that person, like horoscope and every little details abt it...

You'll tend to be a bit silly, if not.. the silliest person on earth just to make that person happy...

Together with that person, you'll tend to shy away from that person when bth eyes are contacted... but the strange things is that you'll stare at that person when that person's not looking at u.

You've that feeling of desperate to hear that person's voice,you're not a desperado... do not be afraid..

You just can't bare to erase the sweet msges on your phone that that person had sent to you.. just in order to let yourself see that your handphone has that person's presence...

You keep denying to yourself that the things you do with that person is just something very ordinary,and, just to know that you can't resist over it again ....

You'll become a real selfish.. for you'll only allow physical pains to be on yourself, not onto her... you'll only want to suffer yourself instead of that person suffering..

Your skin's sense of pain will go haywire...especially, if that person inflicted that pain onto you.. you'll feel the sweetness instead of the pain...

When all these whens ever happened to you... you know it.. you're in love... and if u're thinking of someone when you're reading these whens, you're in love.. with that person...

Don't ever, try to resist love... for love can be the greatest power that any other human can give u... don't deny it.. don't be afraid to fall in love.. for you'll NEVER know what'll happen... For what i know.. love, is the universal language in the world... everyone needs it...

2004-05-17T01:16:00.000+08:00

0116hrs

Haha.. really fun today out ...

Watched this win a date with tad something.. ha.. just as every nice story would end, the gal got together with that guy ... just as i wonder.. how nice would it be if this kinda things happen to me too?!.. but it's still.. up for her to think...

Just to say... even the movie, friends and me say le.. a chance is all i need... the rest is up to u.. dun play against stubborn.. it's foolish...

first time i found that french fries can be real sweetening too... haha.. the rest is history and secret... :P

2004-05-14T12:29:00.000+08:00

1230hrs

yesterday.. was a day to mark...

had a scare from her... told me something that i wouldn't wish to hear... which was real real saddening..something which was real real selfish and foolish to say... what i want to say is.. i want a chance.. not a promise... I'm not afraid.. why should u be? I decide my own happiness, i'm real glad that she think of me... afraid to hurt me...

But not in TAT way that she said those things to me.. she shd know what i mean.. just kick that thinking out of the mind... NV to mention it again, ok??..

The ending last few hours of the day we spent together was a sweet one.. i've always felt that being with you could mean so much between happiness and sadness.. it's just a thin line... so, just... let me be happy... give me that chance....
Just as what i said... If 2 person is in love with each other, no matter what happens, with the 2 person holding on strongly to each other, any obsticle can be overcome...

Be more optimistic.. don't be afraid... I'm not afraid.. and i mean it.. i really mean it...

I WANT this chance..I'll cherish it.And whatever the future is, u're forever.. my princess.....
my dearest princess....

2004-05-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

2358hrs

Opportunities strikes once... that's true.. i totally agree with that... and don't give up!...

Today is a strange day for me.. one of the strangest day i've ever had this year.. I've never missed somebody so badly as i had in the past today..it's really a strange feeling... but i enjoyed it!.. haha..
I don't know if i'm expressing it too much.. too much of something is not too good...well, if it really is, i'd just like to say.. pls treat me as a crazy guy today.. ha!.. just for today.. bear with it..

Keeping my mood high, if i'm low, who would be able to cheer her up?... Smile and stay happy Joey...

2004-05-12T01:48:00.000+08:00

0148hrs

I hereby declare myself as a part-time racist... against indians.... which means.. some are good and some are bad... those who are good, can be really good... those who are bad can be real baddie.. they can do things to the extend that normally we would only expect it to happen in tv life...

feeling: helpless... totally helpless... for the first time in my life, i feel so useless and helpless... tot i'm good at everything.. but it's wrong.This time, i can't even share her burden.... what's wrong with me?? i don't know.. i really don't know..

Human beings... some of us live in self denial... just for the time being... well.. i think those who do that, well.. it's just as well as those drinking beer.. just to forget their sorrows... it WON'T help.. ok?! u wake up, the problem is still with u... u've got to face it.. with a brighter side.. things aren't always that bad... for example, The death of a family member doesn't mean bad.. For that member may be suffering from certain illness, leaving is a better option for him/her. We can certainly look at it in a brighter side.. no use getting sad over it. This world is like that... things don't just happen the way u expect it.

Same goes for mistakes... pple err.. they make errors and that's what makes them human.. we often regret somethings tat we've done, or haven done. For me, i certainly won't regret over it. For i see it's foolish to cry over spilt milk. i'll learn from it, and NOT to make tat same error again.

When we make mistakes, pple do have different reactions against it. Anger, sadness, dispair and so on..... what makes a saint and a ignorant is that the saint will forgive for what tat mistake is and the ignorant will feel over it. Do not be afraid... face it with a brighter way.... For all yr friends will be supporting u...

Only time, can heal the wounds in her... which i hope it really comes fast... only when the time comes, we will be forced to do the things that we normally escape...

Escaping is not the way to deal with the problem...Definately not the way.. that's something u've to learn... don't be so stubborn.. tat's not the way... definately not.

2004-05-11T18:31:00.000+08:00

1831hrs

am now looking at the new $10 note.... Mum just pass it to me... real fake.. plastic lo.. i prefer the traditional old note.. where it gives u a real $$ feeling.. well.. whatever it is.. mum give me, $$, i'll take.. who don't like money...

But that face of that yusof ishak piss me off.. y put his face? not my face?? argh.... but most of the time.. those face that are printed is notes are pple who are history.. hmm... i rather not be it... but that yusof's ishak, for u notice, his ears look like a pig ear on the new note.. the color's so different from the face.. so ugly.. shd ask me to design the new notes nxt time... i'll put the faces of pple whom i dun like on it.. draw it like a pig.. let everyone use it..

Most of my friends have started their projects... i want to start too!!.. best thing is that they post me to NTU.. where it gives me a sense of sec life.. ha.. for jyss is near there...

2004-05-10T12:50:00.000+08:00

1250hrs

Arh.. how come the blogger thingy is like tat.. changed the whole format le... whateverrrr........

just feel like blogging.. woke up with this feeling of sweetness... what happened yesterday seems to be flashing back at my mind the moment i wake up.. argh... dun know y... have this sense of happiness and looking forward towards nxt outing... the last part was good... at the merlion... suddenly realised that her eyes are so beautiful... arhhhhhhh........ boring boring boring at home......

2004-05-10T01:22:00.000+08:00

0120hrs...

summary of sun...:

SwEeT dAy....

Short and sweet...

Don't wanna mention more.. keep it as a memory for myself.. :P

2004-05-08T12:03:00.000+08:00

1155am

It's Over.... the papers... no more worries... haha.. finally.. it's the ending of my year two life in poly and the beginning of my third year on monday!Not really looking forward to it.. sounds quite old as a third year student... real old... not nice....

Immune paper was sucky... the fans in that sports hall sucks.. keep blowing my hair and the papers.. i feel like tearing the papers at one point of the time... ya.. qn. paper.. not answer paper.. i don't dare to do that! There's a couple of tough qns at the short answer part. The MCQ was an easy one..
After 4pm, smile was all over pple's face.. u can sense the sense of relief.. no late nights anymore.. but it also tells us one more thing.. nothing to do already.. quite boring.. but lucky is that i've no holidays this sem, that's why i won't be tat bored...

Watched Blood Brothers at PS.. arh.. the show was ALRIGHT la.. ok la.. wanted to watched van helsing instead.. shd be quite nice.. dunno.. went to durian and crap around with the same old usual few guys.. except today we somesort broke out tradition of not goin to KTV after the exams, which we normally do that everytime...

Ya.. all those who are posted overseas shd be leaving today.. bless them good luck overseas.. sure to miss them all.. some to USA, ireland, england, scotland... blar blar blar.... Bon VoyAgE!!.. and all the best..
feeling sleepy now.. after 3 hrs of sleep yesterday only.. zzZZZZzzzzzz

2004-05-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

1829hrs

1 more to go... tat's it...thankz to teacher's laziness, or teacher's leniency.. this Past Year Paper thingy is really good.. studying it can at least guarentee a pass for u.. the teacher didn't really bother to change much of those qns.. so those who study hard and memorised the answers to it, good for u... those who didn't, good luck...

Seems like afternoon nap is a Must for me nowadays... same thing today.. came back.. had a 5 hrs nap... and same... seems like dreams or "daymares" are also getting pretty normal for me these days...

Had a few thoughts today... that is time and environment really changes the way pple acts... the way they talk and do things... it really does... especially for polytechnics, different course also changes the person differently...i've seen far too many examples...

Many of u shd have hear the story of Pandora's box... what stimulate my thinking most and what i agree most is the ending part.. where the bad elements get released off and starts to wonder around in the world... these are anger, madness,greed,lust and fear... for all these things... i think it's really true.... i can really see it taking on part and parcel of our life... influencing the way pple react and behave.. pple get jealous, mad, sad, greed... whatever.... if the story's really true... i shd have want to kill that pandora... or rather destroy the box... for those elements really infects the human world... no matter where u are in this world... u can't escape these elements from getting into u....

Happy as it may seem to be... for all the exams are over.. it also means another thing... seperation.. some of my friends are being posted overseas for thier attachments... sure to miss them... and it also means no longer seeing them for the rest of my poly life so often le....

2004-05-03T01:01:00.000+08:00

0043hrs..

watched a marathon movies yesterday.. dawn of e dead at 2140 and 50 first dates at 0020.. all date or dead... pretty rhyming...

my points to this two show..

3 1/2 over 5 for dawn of the dead... pretty good zombies.. running sure get first ... their running is damn fast.... speed wise can enter olympic... effect wise is not bad.... music wise sux... totally sux... those who watched already shd know... the music don't fit to the show at all!! the ending too... well i can say quite creative as it overcomes what we usually will expect for a normal ending... not everthing's what we expect...

3 over 5 for 50 first dates... romance , i can say quite good.. quite sweet of that guy to do those stuffs.. humor wise , arh.. not tat great as compare to starsky and hutch...

Summary of today, sun....

Mother's day... i suppose? i dunno... no celebrations at all.. really.. we don't usually celebrate those things in my family... same as birthdays... bleh!!>.. woke up at 2.. real pig... stayed up for an hour.. realised nothing much to do.. went to sleep again at 3 and woke up at 6... real pig....

with regards to that mum's day thing.. i somehow can feel bit of disappointment in her.. but wat can i do? i really dun have tat sum of money to do all those things that i wanted to do....

finally.. today came the chance as i was speaking to her.. out of no where the chance came and i managed to get an answer to my unsolved qn... this qn bothered me for almost years... perhaps i've matured a bit over the years or what? whatever answer she gives me really won't affect my moods or what.. coz what i've learnt these years is to accept and forgive... i'm learning to accept pple's suggestion, which i normally do not do.. for i was a person who thinks that what i do is the best... well.. i'm changing.. needa some time...

perhaps.. sometimes, we human.. just need an answer to everything.. only with that answer, regardless it to be positive or negative, then only we can rest in peace....

2004-04-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

2331hrs

2 downed... 2 to go.. all theroies type of test.. Immunology and AMB.. today's aqua was real stoopid for me.. i messed up the qn and answer... didn't read properly and applied the wrong theory ans at the wrong qn..

ha.. whatever.. hope.. ya.. that's the word..

heee... whatever.. for the past 2 papers.. i've to thanks my friend for giving me this wake up morning call.. ya.. i needed it.. if not for those call, i guessed that i would have missed either one of those .... thank you..

but she's a silly person... either it's stubborn or what... shdn't tell her anything abt it....

now at least.. i'm feeling quite relieved... haha.. looking forward to nxt week... ya.. just bring it.. finish it once and for all.. i guess i'll just give myself a break tonite...

2004-04-29T18:50:00.000+08:00

1839hrs

One down... 3 more to go... yup.. maths that is.. finally finished!!.. i dun know what the outcome of it will be, but i don't wish to think abt it anymore.. coz it's finished!!.. now shd be concentrating on the fish tomolo...

Just woke up from a nap.. i wonder how true is it that for me and for everyone else... that i always seems to have a dream with almost the same situation.. sometimes repeating again and again... this time.. i had 2 dreams in that nap.. one of it made me cry.... ya.. cried in a dream.. tears drop off my eyes.. ya.. real tears.. the other dream?? i've forgotten it.. just like the normal dream that everyone has.. so vivid and we forget it after we wake up.. ya.. just forget it...

I knew what i am doin.. i knew that i'm dropping tears at that point of time when i dream.. but the fact that the dream is a far too upsetting one for me to take it......

Just wondering.. how many are like me.. has this same situation that u have a dream that can really make u cry... or has a dream that has the same repeating situation..

Perhaps in another point of view, it may be due to the exams around me? the stress to get it pass or what that has made me had this dream?? in another way the dream automatically allows me to let off some stress or what by dropping some tears... well.. tat should be the case.. coz our brain normally picture some dream to let us reflect on what's the real us happening inside.. maybe i had a few tensed days for the past few days.. that's why the brain made this dream for me...

2004-04-28T00:48:00.000+08:00

0028...

thursday is the day.... that maths day.... finish it and hopefully, i won;t repeat...... and there won't b animore maths 4 me 4 the nxt few years!!! hahaha....

practically spent half of my day at sch today.... rushing thru maths... well, as usual.. i dunno why.. just can't focus... but managed to get some topic covered...

now for the tv thingy.. didn't bother to think a lot.. so just a little of the "modern tv" thingy

In chinese shows...:

-- In scenes of a person wanting to jump floor, the rescuer seems to be the one who gets hanging in the end... he saved that person.. but in some sense of another.. he'll be hanging 4 his dear life..
-- "Come any closer and i'll jump". is the standard word for pple who wanna comit sucide.. come on.. wanna jump, who cares if they wanna come close to u.....

For police and thief scene
--"Stop running" is the standard thing for police to say when they chase the thief or robber... come on.. as if they'll be so stupid to stop for u to catch...
--In case of police chasing the robber, the police hero will always so coincidential gets a car that this poor fellow drives past... saying will return it later.. but only to bang and destroy it in the chase...

--noticed in those hong kong serials that the beer that they drink is always covered with this red color paper... just a red paper covering a can... they call it the beer.. so standardised...

Office:
-- usually when tat main character wakes up late for work, the clock will show 930..
-- Toilet is where this 2 calafé (extra.. whatever. dunno how to spell), gossip and talk bad abt the main character.. then so coincidential will it be that the main character will be in tat only occupied cubicle listening to what they say...

For Indian shows, or music tv?? haha...... same old plot..

--This guy walk walk walk, then out of no where his kahkis will jump out from the bush and start dancing and singing...
-- usually the kahkis will be wearing the same costume and dancing the same steps.. acting crazy like monkies
-- Trees are the main prop for the gal and that man to dance.. each facing alternate direction thru and flo.... as if they can't see each other...
-- Loud awful singings is a must in their shows... sure got dance..
-- sometimes the guy will roll down the slope with the gal in their singing.. and laugh ... crap..
-- some times, the character.. the hero rather.. gets pierced by so many arrows... piercing thru the body... and he can still jolly well stand and make sure his line is being said be4 he kick the bucket...

2004-04-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

2331hrs

nah..... nthing much 2 write today.... study and found tat lots of things still blurblur like shit... esp maths.... i'm really a shit head at it......

really needed some emotional support to keep me going... at least not for me to give it up........

2004-04-25T12:10:00.000+08:00

1200hrs...

Woke up late..... supposed to meet my bud, needa maths help from him.... argh.... too tired from yesterday le....

Yesterday....

Morning was really a rush for me for the project... we only managed to finished it at the very very very last min.. the teacher was really sucky.. asked a lot of qns... it's only a IS module.. y must he be so like... picky.... whateverrr.... it's done.. no need to see him again... that william hung....

went for the class outing at marche.. with my friends sitting in my friend's car... haha... 5 pple sit behind the car rear while i'm in front.. it was really a funny sight to see 5 pple at all sorts of position behind.... we arrived bery bery late... really sorry abt that for the teacher, who has been waiting for so long...

after that makaning, we went for a movie at ps... Starsky and Hutch.. damn me... i actually slept halfway in the show.. really shagged out.. but i was awaken up by the continous laughters in the show.. tried to concentrate, and it was really a very funny show.. 80% of the time, we were laughing...

went to esplanade after that... don't know why.. whenever i go there, this particular strange feeling will come to me.. the feeling of envy, happiness and relaxation.. i envy those couples who were at there, or at least they were with someone who they can confide in... the view at there was really nice.. the lightings at the top of the durians were like diamonds encraved on top of it.. so nice so nice....

without realising.. i was still at the esplanade at 2345!!! my last train was at 2353( according to what she said)... haha.. it was a real exciting and scary experience... u can see that everyone was walking so fast lo.. in the tunnel to the station... some ran, of course.. i jogged back there.....

tat was really a long day for me....

2004-04-24T02:20:00.000+08:00

0142hrs

Took my final prac of this year... the prac exam was real stressing.. 3 mins for each station!!.. 13 station!!! no time to think lo... haha.. the teacher will have a taste of my arabic handwritings....

I'm dead meat.... project deadline's tml... and we've yet to complete it.... y am i here?? hmm.. just to slack a while.. just a tinny while will do....

Feeling bit tensed up.. but thankz to her... she's the so called de-stresser.. accompanied me and entertaining me....haha.. thank you....

Just to continue on the Gu Zhuang thingy....
Part II :

1) The actor and actress seems to have endless of same kind of costume.. always wear the same color, same pattern throughout the show..
2) The head chopper man always wear a red color costume, red bandana( jacket?? i dunno what it is).... and there's always hair on the chest.
3) Always be4 the last moment when the head chopper man wanna hack off the convict's head.. this fellow riding on a horse will appear.. saying Dao Xia Liu Ren..
4) Antidode for poisons are basically brown color chocolate!!
5) Strange thing is that when heroes goes to war to fight the enemies... the enemy soldiers get killed with just one slice of the sword.. while it took ages to even injure the hero
6) White pigeons are used as the postman in the past... always white
7) When the pple there get injured internally, u just need to put both palms on the back.. let out some smoke.. it'll be fine...
8) The emperor always slip out of the palace to town.. with his man calling him Lao Ye.... but be4 that, his men will tend to forget abt him in town and call him huang.... then followed by Lao Ye...
9) Those pple who offend the emperor always kneel down and say i deserve death... but when the emperor ordered him to be excuted, he'll beg and cry for pardon like hell...
10) The girls in the past tend to have this strange fetish of dressing like a man...
11) The most famous musical instrument in the past for girls is Pi Pa..... often when one of the strings breaks.. something bad is ought to happen..
12) The window's made of paper... can just poke through with some saliva on yr hands..
13) You can really see that the tv stations are really short of elder actors/actress .... almost the older characters in the story will be played by just these few actors..
14) The tables and chairs in the past is the most breakable...
15) Eye staring between rival gangs is already very popular thing since the past... Fight will usually occur then.. with the hero eating his bun and acting as if nothing happen...

2004-04-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

2358hrs

Today's fish prac test was really quite easy lo....... but then again... most of us screwed it up.. haha.. including me... just couldn't remember the answer to some of those qns...
One of the funny thing was that this qn... there's 3 types of fishes for us to name lo.... it's tiger barb, female fighting fish and gourami.... wen zhao actually named it shark for the tiger barb... simply is coz he don't know how to do.. that's the biggest joke of the day lo.....

Tml's final prac test.. amb.. i'm through it halfway.... shd be okay la.. i hope..... ya.. i flunked my maths prac test... got quite low for it.... well, anyway.. got to work harder nxt time....

I realise that.... often we tend to live in a world whereby some of us just tend to like, live their life for other pple.. they fear.. fear that they'll get unpopular among them... and therefore restrict themselves to what they usually do... just like being rather fake than their true self... don't they find it very tiring? to live in a world for others?? tat tend to go in relationship... pple do.. often , just to please the other party, they tend to be so called "being restrained" to what they normally do.. they care abt what their partner will think of them... if someone come and ask me this qn, abt them feeling uncomfortable with it, i'll straight away tell them off... as in... for me, in a relationship, i really expect both party to be their trueself lo.. no point trying to be a good guy or good girl in front of their partner... the other party should really just accept for who u are.... and not for who u are trying to be what he/she likes.... tat's rather immature for pple who aren't really their "trueself" and act like as it is....

A talk with one of my gal friend today just made me realise how true this sentence is... Women really dont usually mean waht they say... when they say they don't want, the fact is that they usually want it.. just want the guy to like somesort insist on it...

Noticed some of the things i saw in those Gu Zhuang shows..( Show with olden times backgound)

1- They heroes always can fly..... fly when they fight... but no matter how far they fly, they still must walk and travel on horse when they wanna get to other town...
2- They always have endless of $$ to spend... without working...
3- There's always this stoopid secret mannual for pple to snatch... only the heroes get it... the rest will get the fake one..
4- Inn is the place where they carry out those annual martial art meetings...
5- They always drink, bath, wash clothes at the river side
6- Their water bottles are always the same old kidney shape brown leather type.... where their water seems to be endless
7- The most popular food in the so call in the inn is the man tou(bun)...
8- The silver needle where they use to test the food always appears out of no where
9- Darts are the most common tools for communication wise... or when pple wanna pick up a fight or deal... they'll use the darts to tell the other party the place and meeting time..
10- The inner costumes of those actors seems to have a very large space for them to put endless of stuff inside.. Notice the costumes don't have pockets
11- The hero can get slashed many times without letting out a sound.. but they'll wince at the slighest touch by their gal...
12- The thousand year gingseng or the tian san xue lian always cure all types of injuries
13-The pple there , in the jungle, say wanna go find food... then sure can find one lo.. and it's like chicken or fish everytime...
14- The house room of thier age often have secret compartment... whereby the switch is often either a lamp or a statue
15-Wine is the best choice to put yr poison in it... Most of them are dummies.. get poisoned by the wines... if not... out of nowhere, just as abt the hero is to drink it, just some stones will fly out of nowhere to hit the hands of the hero, dropping the cup just to find that the floor is corroding...

2004-04-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

2312hrs

Had my Maths stats test today... i was like .... OMFG when i saw the paper... 4 qns... none of it i know how to do.. maybe it's because i don't understand the package.. was required to use the maths stats package to do the qns.... but argh... just try my luck... since i enjoy playin with my luck so much....

Tikam Tikam was the path that i choose.... no choice....

Things weren't really going as smoothly today as i like.....

Oh ya.. i've always wanted to play tamagotchi... say me childish or what... i don't care.. haha... my friend just phoned my and she said she saw one.... haha.. hope it's fun.....

Stuck in com lab the rest of the day to do that idoit perl project... shit it man... not a core module.. but tat project is 60%..... by the end of the day... we still haven really figure out much....

Teacher told me that the fish prac tomorrow will be an easy one.... i was like... Duh!.. easy... so easy still give us for what?? arh... but no choice.. still have to do with it....

2004-04-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

2315hrs

Just saw a mail abt the Roswell alien thingy... just wondering if there's any real alien in this world.. what the heck are they doing on our earth.. or issit just some dummy that the USA put up with to show that how strong it is to discover something else that is beyond the world???... i don't know....

Watched the incredible files on channel 5 just now.. the stories getting scarier and scarier... quite nice abt the tekong one... the other island.. which i presume should be jurong island.. coz the pic of the lightings are those which i saw on the jurong hill.....

More to add for my jogging stories... yea.. luck's not bad today.. my sole of the other shoe is abt to drop off too... just today then i realised it!!... jog jog jog... not tired... i think it's due to the wonder effect of this wonder drink--- Red Bull.... really sweet... like those cough syrupt... and it can really gives u tons of energy... yea.. and discomfort for me.....each time i drink it, i feel uncomfortable in my throat.. maybe too sweet..... After the jog, i went to kopitiam to buy coffee... saw this lady behind my que.. she was somesort laughing of doing what at me... i heck care... but then i look at my shirt.. i realise that it was black colour... instead of the original grey... my whole shirt was drenched with sweat... quite paiseh....

Oh ya...i'm wondering if the schedule's quite tense for me.... coz yesterday nite... i sleep till half... suddenly feeling someone coming over me... opened my eyes.. can't see clearly except saw a white figure.... i immediately wake up, stand up and want to beat it lo.. i tot it was some sort of a thief, wanting to touch me or what... i almost beat it.. then realise it's just my mum... she come over me just to get the remote control for the air con.... the white thingy is becoz of her uniform.. her work uniform is all white... almost hit her... blar... saw it's her.. i didn't say anything.. i just drop back to bed immediately... haha.. tat must have left her quite shock...

asked her just now abt it.. she said that she think that i'm thinking that she wanted to beat me or what... so that's the case of why i wanted to wake up....

hmmm.....tomolo's my maths test... haha. i'm already looking forward to my aqua test on thursday... ready to take up the challenge.. not as in prepared.. but i'm mentally positive abt these tests things... maybe those it's due to those runnings and stuffs... it had made me a stronger person in terms of determination and thinking....

saw those advertisements on the movies showing up.. really getting quite excited abt those... 50 first dates, starsky and hutch... blar blar blar... argh.. but not really have the time to go for it...

sis's back at home... lying on bed, reading a story book now...

2004-04-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

2332hrs...

Tired now... Argh... my luck's really good today.... went for jogging just now.. jog till half, sole of left shoe drop off, then it's suppose to be a jog and i ended up running... coz of the sudden drizzle... luck's really good huh.... then worst thing is that my watch stripe actually broken off after that run.. haha.. so heng...

Saw this new show on channel 8, the wat la xiong la mei or what... by tay ping hui... i found that singapore's show are really very predictable.. as in the story.... as compared to hong kong's serials.... really cannot fight...

took my immune prac test.. gosh.. lots and lots of calculations... hope can pass.. now looking forward to tackle my maths test on wednesday...heard that it's quite difficult..

Realised that this week's gonna be a real real shitty thing for us... i got maths statsgraphic test on wed, Aqua management prac test on thur, Amb prac on fri, and perl project presentation on sat!!... gosh..... quite sickening..
think am gonna miss net for some time as i think it's rather time to start the revision le.....

Talked to her yesterday.. haha.. real glad to hear her usual souring pple again... haha.. of course la.. pple's computer's solved liao.. now become god liao.. can sour pple again.. but okay la.. she like to sour pple, but the way she do that is really cute lo.. so thick skin... bleah :p... still say i'm a typical leo, so Da Nan Ren ... hey.. i'm not okay!!... seems like i'm becoming more and more sadistic... i quite enjoy being suanned by her... haha.. just can't seem to release my suanning skills back to retaliate her...

hmmm..... sis's coming home tomorrow... no more late nites for me... :(

2004-04-19T02:12:00.000+08:00

0205 hrs....

really bored now... nothing to do.. so blog again..... really bo liao........ after 18 years of my life, then only i realised that my 2nd sis was really a pig... she's really a very heavy sleeper.. haha.. y i said that? coz i'm typing real real loud... hitting the keyboard as i typed out my words.... and my musics and songs that i'm playing is really loud lo.. loud enough to really wake ordinary pple up....

Me being bad?? no... coz the light's not switch off.. i'm typing with the lights on, the music on and the loud keyboards banging.... after monday, i would not have the chance to do it again at these wee hours already... coz my big sis is coming back le..... coming back from bali.... haha..

Can consider these few days is some sort of heavenly type of computer using style i've had.....

after so much so of so long, ya... she still sleeping... i can really say i pei fu her... coz if it's me the one who's sleeping... i would have just wake up and turn off the main switch that the person is using... and go back to sleep... haha.. she's still sleeping..

2004-04-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

18/4/04, 2214hrs...

strange... i blogged at the same time as yesterday.. just got this feeling to do so at this time... Just heard a thunder... good thing to hear , as it means rain is coming!!..

Boring day today at home... spent half of the day lazing around the house.... watched this vcd that i my friend lent me.. Crazy First Love by the guy( Cha Tae-hyun) in the sassy gal ... i like it quite a lot as it was a romance comedy show... more of a touching type towards the end.... really nice..

Here's the overview which i copied from some sites...

Overview: Tae-Il is a super problem child of Kang High. He has an incredible IQ of 148, but he's only interested in marrying his first love, Il-Mae. Young-Dal, Il-Mae's father, openly declares that he would allow Tae-Il to marry his daughter if he could be admitted to the Law School of Seoul National University and pass the Judicial Examination. From then on, Tae-Il's ultimate missions are to study and protect Il-Mae from all the sleazeballs who approach her.

Tae-il succeeded in the end of course.. the touching part starts here. the sad thing is that Il mae got this desease that took away her mum's life... so she thought of ways to reject tae-il's love... in the end, after all the misunderstandings and the long story, they got together in the end still....

haha.. sorry for those who haven watch this show... i did it purposely... just to be a spoiler... but it's really a nice show... i rate it next to my sassy girl....

Now the tv's still showing this NKF stuff... more of exciting than last week's....

sian man... got this imm prac test tml...
gonna study it later....

2004-04-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

17/04/04, 2213 hrs

The heat, the sun is getting more and more tyrant... getting all my programs distracted....puts off my feeling... getting from bad to worst... the heat.. that is...
Must have been real real tough for those construction workers, bearing the heat just to earn those peanut money... and those grass cutter... dressing up like terrorist, covering everything except their eyes,.... the heat must have been real real tough for them...

The feeling of getting runny nose issn't good... can be real irritating... and i actually got a runny nose under this hot weather!!... Irritating + irritating.... wanna switch on the fan.. but my nose's getting the way... and didn't switch on the fan, the heat's getting my way too!!... just plain unlucky....

Glad that today's past... finished my perl test and this pqs presentation.. haha.. guessed today's the best day for my perl teacher so far since he take over to teach us.. coz only the worry faces of us listening attentively to his last min revision makes him happy... at other times, we didn't even care about what he's doin in class....

had a long nap just now... still feelin kinda warm now...
waiting for her call.. haha.. u promised it!!

2004-04-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

16/4/04, 2209hrs

Listening to Daniel Chan's songs now... nice feeling...

Enjoyed the feeling now.. the sense of relived after a heavy day... but the feeling will be even greater after tomorrow...

I got a presentation and a programming test tomorrow....

Yet to know anything much abt the test .......

Tired eyes is making me sleepy every now and then... my stye is coming back... damn it.. i should have finished the whole course of antibiotic... just that i'm too lazy to take it .....

Received a call from her yesterday.. haha... told me that she was real real frustrated with her dear com... and her comp man can only come down to repair it only NXT week... haha... i find that it's actually a good thing in another way as in i actually received a call from her with the help of her com.. haha...

Although the talk was only one hour, i really felt happy and awake talking to her... haha.. it was the happiest thing for me today, just to hear yr voice... though i can't help much on that com, but i was still very happy to hear a call from u... :)

2004-04-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

15/4, 2336 hrs...

Today, was a really really really HOT day.. yea, i mean HOT.. yea... at least for me... The mee siam was a bit too hot for me... and the weather was the same too.... i broke the record... think i used abt 4 packs... imagine... each pack contains 10 pcs, i've used up to 40 pcs!!.....

It was the first field trip for the year... well, to st john island..

Really enjoyed the trip on the bus to the jetty, where we really had a good good crapping session.... i really enjoyed it... all kinds of suaning pple, craps and lames stuff were mentioned..... i can say the whole part of the trip that was what i enjoyed the most....

They've asked if any of us have sea sickness or what.. not me.. i like it.. i mean.. the feeling of the boat moving side to side, up and down the wave... the feeling was great.....

Along the way in the boat, it was hot... hot... hot.... pple were doin different things.... some were happily chatting away with thier friends, some playing poker cards, some sleeping, some enjoying the breeze and a few, like me, looked out towards the sea.... each seems to have thier own thoughts in thier mind....

As i look out of at the sea, it reminds me of the happy times i've spent at the kelong with my friends... although it was just a short passing phrase of my life, where i think it's only 1 week plus, i really enjoyed it.... the fishing part, the joey that was still very hum ji at that time of falling into the sea.... thinking of it really marks my day...

The sea surface seems to be coated with sheets of diamonds... under the hot sun, it really reflects like diamonds... very nice to see... very nice...

Reach there, had some little trekking to the AVA's area...well,i can say that the outing there was shit.... POS(piece of shit)... totally a waste of my time... i only enjoyed the lecture room, where the air con and the seat was nice... i had a little nap when the manager was talking.. haha... i can't stop it.. too tired...

Everything else at there was some pretty boring stuff... fishes fishes and still fishes....
ARGH... and most stoopid thing is that my hp got no reception at that island....

Back to mainland, at the boat.. this time i spent most of my time outside at the butt of the boat, enjoying the breeze and scenary... me and some frens, sumarlin, timothy, mun hoe and other frens climbed to the roof of the boat.. woa... song ah.. cool breeze on this hot day... real song....

well..yet to finish...
After all the day looking at the fishes, my mum had cooked only FISH and veggies for the night.... nice huh....

Now strange thing is at this hour.. only then i'm starting to feel the motion sickness as i'm typing this out... i feel like i'm on the boat....

2004-04-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

0036hrs, 15/04/04

Quite a lot of things happened for the past few days, well i believe.... for my friend especially... he's asked me to go over to his house there for a chat.. i realised something wasn't right as it wasn't really him to do that ..... yup.. he was troubled... drunk also.. although he didn't realised it, i realised that he was a bit drunk tat nite....

Love, love is the thing that can have really wonderful effect on human being... with it, nothing seems impossible and without it, everything seems useless and impossible to u.

Love is Blind.. well, i wouldn't quite say it is blind.. i would say Love Blinds Pple...... blinded by it, we tend to do some foolish things and then only to realise it, it's often quite too late... it also shows the silly side of what we normally wouldn't do...

We often live in our own world of fantasy... fantasy like there's really such things as beautiful ending to each story that we faced... well, i believe that that's a way where our mind helps us to escape this cruel reality of the world.. Come on... there issn't always such things as really returned love as we see in Tvs, shows, movies... Often, the love that we give to pple is unreturned... even if it is returned, it may not be as much as u've given out...

Well, that's what love is.. you don't expect to accept anything that u've given out... u tend to be more generous, happy and willing to sacrifice for that only one... even a simple talk with her/him warms yr sad day up.. a word of concerns is what u hope to get in exchange of a few years live..

When u feel like tat, you're in love dude....You're Blinded!!!!

So much so for relationships...

the next few week is gonna be a real test for me... it's rather what we students are goin to look for when we study.. the exam week....

Pple do fear for exams.. the fear of failing, the fear of difficulty, the fear of this and that....

For me, i fear no exams... instead of these fear, i look forward to the day where i finished my last paper instead... i look forward to see what i've really failed to study and what i really can do... this is my attitude..

Look at the positive side of life... and no fear will hunt u....

2004-04-14T04:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm...

Virus... be it computer or real world virus..... i hate it....... just got it few days ago... now her computer got something wrong... i wonder if it's the work of virus or not... if virus, i'll be happier.. coz i can help search some cure for it.. if it's otherwise, software or other problems... i can't help her at any other way.... sian man.... missed a day's chance to chat with her.....

2004-04-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

0057 hrs

Just had a new haircut ...... after so many pple like my dad, mum sis and sis wanted me to cut my hair..... basically it's my whole family wanted me to cut my hair.. haha

Got it cut, quite strange, haha.. whatever, quite ok at times when u look from other angle too...

Was accompanied by my cousin juz now to the haircut. During the cut, he watches me and was very noisy... keep making me laugh and want me to have a hole cut at the head.. he's noisy... but i enjoyed his company too... haha

His features was very rebellous... 2 piercing at the ears, one at nose, one at tounge... wonder if he's a sadist .....

Though being like tat, he smokes too... well, pple would have the sterotype comments that he's no good person... well to me, after the chat with him... i'm starting to respect him even more...

We chatted abt his working life and stuff.. he's just quitted his restuarant job... well, good one for that.. coz the welfare was suxky... the manager dunno anything and basically he runs the shop!!...

We had a long chat... the contents basically proves to me that he's a very mature guy and is enthu into this servicing line... no wonder he's studying at shatec now.. haha.. i really wish him good luck for the future.. i believe with his working attitude, he'll definately gain respect and command from other pple in his working life..

But what saddens me is that he still seems to be in tat rebellous stage of his life... piercing his body and so on.. well i respect what he did, and it's pretty good that he do this kind of thing rather than later in his life at abt 30, 40.. that would be silly... he's just a bit rebellous to me....

Haha.. whatever.... gonna catch up more with him nxt time to talk with him more...

2004-04-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

11/4/04, 2215hrs...

Just realised that today got tat NKF show.... watched some of it... quite touching at times and a bit of sadistic for me at the other times.... Touching as in u can see the love of mother when her son has that disease...from it, u can learn that we, as children shd try our best not to do anythign which upsets them...

Like hurting ourself unnecessary, doing bad things and stuff.... No parent in the world would like their child to do such things.. no matter how old u are.. 10, 30 or 50... as long as they're alive... you're still thier dearest child... Love yr parents... be more filial to them... and respect the elders... they're more senior than us.. they know lots lots things more than us....

This is what stimulated my thoughts from that small part of the show... as the sadistic part.. i can see the sharon aw climbing the sword stairs... real sadistic... doesn't have to do that.. although it's to act as a mass appeal to the audience to make the phone call...
Oh ya... Fan Fan was beautiful when she perform her songs on that show just now.. simply gorgeous...

The thoughts of the coming exams simple puts me off... argh.. let it come.. finish it quick!!!!

2004-04-10T18:54:00.000+08:00

10/4/04 sat... 1847hrs

What's the difference between black and white?? well, although they're still colors, there's a real real great difference between them both, some can just say they're the opposite of each other...... I'm feeling real terrible now.... terrible from the feeling of missin someone..... the feeling is just so sourish...... i hate em'....

Just as the same.. The opposite of missin someone is being missed by someone.. and there goes the feelings too.. the feelings of being missed by someone is a real real black and white difference ... the feelin, however is sweet.... the heart will feel light instead of the heavy one of the missin party... just the direct opposite....

I do not call her... do not msg her.... for the fear of only getting replies that she's with someone else.....

I remembered this phrase from that tv show... which is really what i wanted to tell her....

" You know, You're very fortunate... you have a choice... a choice to like, or don't like me..... while i have no choice...only to love u, and to love u even deeper..."

2004-04-10T01:07:00.000+08:00

Summary of Good friday

Keep thinking that today, good friday, is a sat!!.. dunno why i have that thought... maybe it's because today i feel quite relaxed... damn it... and guess what? my sis actually woke me up early in the morning to ask me if i have any classes later!?!?.. strange question to ask with on a good friday huh...

Just came back from this movie.. HellBoy...

Initially i'm not really interested in this show.. but after watching it, well.. quite nice... not bad... interesting and exciting, except i'm quite blurred up by the starting part...Starting to imagine if i'm really like the hellboy.. haha.. as in the way he likes his gal... haha..... u've to watch it to know how he's like towards the gal he like..

hmm... my left ear is itchy now... wondering if there's someone scolding me or missing me.... itchy itchy itchy... hot hot hot...

Really like this Liv Tyler, saw some trillers on her nxt movie Jersy girl... something like tat... she really got this beautiful eyes... really beautiful....

Wondering if singaporeans nowadays are really so tired up or what... saw this blangla worker just lying on the bus interchacnge floor and sleep.. then got down from the bus, see this malay lady lying on the vertical seats of the bus to sleep also... what a strange thing...

well. it's sat now... really sat now... by the time i've started and finished with my blog for the day....

2004-04-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

8/4/04, 2302hrs

Lectures seem to start to become once again a strange thing to me .... maybe it's due to skipping of 2 much of lectures... i've become quite uneasy to lectures.... lately, especially maths.... teacher has been releasing us so early.. which issn't of her character... maybe it's that she've almost finished her text.... whatever....... just having a strange feeling nowadays.....

Rather strange feeling... something which i've not experience be4....

Have been listening to jay's songs for the past hour...

Gonna dissect mouse nxt week... get the spleen and make juice out of it... this time.. it's either one of us, john, me or sumalin.. someone's gonna kill it... maybe it's me.. coz i'ven been involved in the last mouse...
Discussed the class outing.. realised something... my english really sux...sux to the core... i can't even spell simple words properly... .still remembred that time i actually ask my friend how to spell chilli.. haha.. still got.. simple words like heeren i spelled hereen, swenson i can't get it rite, just those simple words u don't expect me to get it wrong.. i get it wrong for u.....

Really starting to wonder... wonder how my o level get that kind of result for english.. haha.. really funny...

Suddenly realise time passes so fast... exam's coming in 3 weeks... i've missed out abt 3 weeks of lectures.. gonna catch it up soon.. or i'm real real dead meat....

haiz~~~.... mood issn't really good as it appears to me for now...
though i'm smiling all day long.. i know something is not right.. just dun know what it is....

Mood now : Mixed like rojak at the S-11 in front of my house..
Listening to : Jay Zhou - Wan Mei Zhu Yi

2004-04-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

7/4/04, 2355hrs..

Updating my blog seems to be part and parcel of my life nowadays... don't know why it's like tat.. but it just came to my mind automatically...

nothing much to say today.. quite tired after today's activity....

Ya.. be4 my swimming, i went to pei shan's house there to play badminton.. and guess what.. first time i've head shot a person so near... i've smashed into her head with that shuttle cock... the sound is so loud lo... even i can feel the pain.. sorry shan.. haha.. but it's still funny,... head shoted her... right on target...

bad me got my retribution.. be4 i got down to the pool after that, suddenly my nose bleed... non - stop.. perhaps it's due to the heatiness inside me... nose bleed... strange that i hasn't really experience that serious bleeding be4...

came home... dropped down from the bus i noticed something sweet... i saw this couple kissing at the behind of the bus.. it's so sweet.... well, at least to me is like tat, to others they may feel that it's quite disgrace to do that in public... for me, it's a form of affection... dun be afraid to show it ....

Noticed the moon's quite round today... wondering if the so called my future wife is also looking at it.... haha.. how wonderful if it is if i'm talking to her on the phone... at the same time both of us are looking at that moon... how romantic it would be... just as to mark that at that point of time , remember that both of us are looking at this same thing together, hearts linking to each other.. how sweet that would be....

haha.. how i wish tomorrow would pass quickly.. good friday pls come... more holidays....!!

2004-04-07T00:53:00.000+08:00

tue's summary.....

Nothing much to write today.. nv go out...

Oh ya.. yesterday nite.. mon.... abt 11 + like tat... watch tv till half.. wa lao.. suddenly whole house blackout... tot what.. tot my dad haven pay the bills....

Woke him up to check it out... ya.. he did pay the bills...

He went to check the meters... nope.. it's not working.... he down the 5th floor to check if the neighbour is suffering the same fate as us.. yup... it is indeed..

He wen back sleep while i check it out myself.. went up to 7th floor... yup.. that uncle's house is same.. black.. my whole column of the flat is out of electricity..
Made friends with that uncle from the 7th floor.. Yup.. first neighbour friend since i've moved here.... he called the town council to ask technician to fix it.. thank you uncle..

Electricity resumed 1 hr later..

yup.. that's it for the day.....

For today... ya.. it's wed morn liao.. goin to be a bz day later on.......

siAn 1/2.. realise still haven done my maths tutorials!!!!!!!!!!!!..... siannnnnnnnn

2004-04-05T17:23:00.000+08:00

05/04/04,mon..

Skipped skool today.. not much lessons today... went to see the doc... painful eye for the past few days.. since last week it's like tat... left eye to right eye.. then left eye dunno 4 what reason swollen today...

Diagnosed with stye... yup.. bacteria infection... staphylococcus aureus ,.. i hate em.... itchy itchy itchy.... sian sian sian.....

nothing much to do today... except to wait for my xun qin ji at 9pm.. nice show....

Watched 3 episode of the band of brothers, war show, on invasion of allies unit on D-Day and so on.. quite nice show.. except the usual casualities in wars... i hate it....but that's the reality.. war sux..

2004-04-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

04/04/04...

Nice date huh... nothing much today... wake up as usual on sunday.. 2.30pm.. tat's my routine every sun.. almost the same time wake up.. 2.30... wonder how our human body clock work everytime... Such a strange and facinating thing.. for mine, it's working quite well.. everyday after school.. i take bus home.. take a short nap... when the bus reaches my stop.. someting seems to automatic wake me up... haha.. nice huh... maybe it's the so call body clock .....

Meet up with jun xin today... he's goin back to tekong tml.. haha.. for his segeant training... haha.. nice man.. how i wish later when i go to tekong he's my segeant... that would be real real fun... haha..

2004-04-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

Whew!....

Finally.. feeling a sense of relieve after this hectic week... a lot of things happened to me... happy, sad, anger,fed up, whatever....

The week's finally getting to an end .....

Just came back from a movie... This "Passion of Christ"...
To some, it may be worth of tears for this movie... for me, it's basically abt 2 hrs of psycotic torture to jesus... whipping with different kinds of torturing tools...

Forgive them, my lord!... this is what that jesus said be4 he died.... he's a strong guy i should admit... after almost 1 1/2 hrs of whipping in the show, he's still alive... damn determined to stay alive i should say... haha... bad me.. whatever.. i'm no christian... but i can say that jesus is a very forgiving man, very so called wei da as he's willing to die in order to help wash away pple's sin....

Ya.. it's a bloody show... bloody as in... ya.. real bloody... lots of blood... u can see how well the job the make up artists of hollywood had done... scars and wounds of the injured jesus is pretty real, and the blood is gross...
Not suitable for anyone who dislikes ghost or horror or gross or violence or sad or psychotic movies.....

Whatever it is.. i'm waiting now.... waiting for someone....

2004-04-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

Friday, 2/4/04...

Mark it joey.. this is a special day... for it's just a special day for me...
I can say that this is the happiest day of my 2004 so far... well.. feeling quite emotional today.... Msn is the thing i wanna thank.. i've talked to this special friend of mine... we've a good good chat... some chat which i don't think makes her feel comfortable...
But it gives me a ray of hope..well.. i guess only she knows what i'm talking about...

Being more initiative is what i'm gonna do this time round..... because of this lacking of the initiative in me, and the low self esteem that joey has, i've wasted abt 4+ years... Plus some factors... í really had wasted many chances.... well... there's surely something in common between this special friend of mine and me... that is.. whenever we chat with each other.. i feel that both of us seems to have lots of things to say to each other.. but it's just that "communication link" that's stopping us.. or rather should i say that there's really too much and too difficult to phrase it out....

Besides the converstaion that's in my mind the whole day, it was a real hectic day for me...

Firstly, woke up late... but it's worth it.. haha.... as to exchange for that conversation... I went for the second lecture instead of the first...

After that lecture, i was immediately required to skip another lecture.. just to complete this fish project of mine....

Received a call from my mum.... nothing good... she's lost her handbag, hp and stuff... i wanted to go home immediately to see what i can do to help her... but i just can't go home... still got the project to do.. i called my sis instead, asked her to go back home...

whatever it is now, as usual, my mum got a scolding from my dad.... for being such careless... well.. i pity my mum.. coz of course... maybe my dad said it in anger... i knew that no one wants such things to happen....

Later gonna accompany her to the police post again... to report something that she forgot to report....

Hai~~ this day of mine is really something to be remembered... 2th april 2004.....

Although i'm feeling tired now, but i'm still happy....

2004-04-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

Thursday, April fool

Tired... just like yesterday... tired from run.. but good thing today is that i managed to catch up already.. which is i completed my normal running route without stopping...

Got to hand in this Aqua project tomorrow... damn sick man the project... it's stoopid and useless to me.. just spend whole 8 weeks + just to find out the growth of tilapias... stoopid rite?

Whatever... good thing that today april fool no one's fooling each other in the class... good... but towards the end of the day.. only when i reached home.. i realised that my bag kana bird shit... good joke.. good one from the bird... don't let me catch u.. u bastard... if not you're gonna get shitted back by me!!....
But good that the bird had a poor aiming... didn't got my head... better luck nxt time.. birdy....

2004-03-31T20:07:00.000+08:00

wed evening... 2000hrs

Tired.. just came back from run... damn it.. i've totally lost my stamina.... shit it man.. got to catch it man... can't finish the run... got to stop and run for many times...

Had my first blood donation of my life today... decided to give it a go as it's pretty interesting to see that yr tiny pack of blood can save pple......
Quite nervous when i was abt to take the first jab..... it was taken by the only doctor there... i supposed... haha.. what an honour... the jab and drawing of blood was very successful... first time then on target already...

After the tube was inserted into my hands... the doc said something to me...
Something which i found very meaningful... which i think only usually happens in tv...

He said.."Remember... you're not helping me, you're helping to save others pples' life..."

I just replied ya.. i know...

i've decided tat nxt time got any blood donation, just count me in!!... very meaningful and pretty nice.... got music to hear somemore when u lie down to have your blood taken....

Quote of the day: I've saw this dunno on some advertisement or where.. i found it very meaningful.. something like... "When is the last time you've ever tried doing a thing for the first time"

It stirrs up my thinking... which also tells me that life is short... try everthing... be adventurous!!..

2004-03-30T14:23:00.000+08:00

Tuesday afternoon.... 2.17pm

Just woke up abt 17 mins ago....

Now my mind is in a blank... as usual... i'll lag when í wake up every morning.. except it's noon now... i'll just lag.. my mind won't really activated till 1 hr later... won't be work till 1/1/2 later... Seems like an engine huh.. needing some time to warm and start up... It's no wonder why i wake up everday at 530 where my school starts at 8.... even though i'll reach at 9.... i really need these time to fresh up my brain....

Slept at 1230 yesterday... really had a nice sleep.... today's my break day.. as usual... feeling rather refresh after that sleep... gonna study for the cct tomorrow... stoopid maths again....

Cousin just called... gonna meet up with them at jurong point later after this.....
good... can go for some coffee...

Listening to : Where is the love - Black Eyed Peas

2004-03-29T06:57:00.000+08:00

29th march mon......

good morning....... yup... nothing to do so come online surf net...
Went to katong yesterday with my buds to makan dinner..... tried the laksa there....
First time in my whole life i've tasted laksa.... realise it's not bad afterall... yup.. it's my first time.... really.. i've not tried laksa be4..... so i've decided to do that yesterday... if not that would be a joke... although i knew it's already a joke 4 a guy who live in singapore who have not tasted laksa be4 for 18 years...

Goin to skool later... to attend the stupid aqua lecture...

2004-03-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

27th march sat....

3 days to reach to 1/3 of 2004....
Saw the magnum force today of my skool... they were the cheerleading group... one word.... FANTASTIC... ha.. cheerleading.. yup.. real fantastic as in good.... just good....

Down with Flu .... weak rite??... fuck the flus....

2004-03-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

26th march.. fri

I'm listening to this song over and over again for the past 1 hr... really a nice song.... although quite old le... "Colours of the wind", Coco Lee's version... Really feel kinda relaxed and emotional when this song is played....

I remembered sometime last year, come dec, i went to this class chalet... tat nite, we went to this Karaoke pub there, didn't managed to get a seat there... but i was totally mesmerized by this lady there... she sang this song.. "Colours of the wind"... her voice, was that kind which really drugged me... i just stayed there... listened to her sing that song.... really nice.. i still remember it ...

My bud charles just called me not long ago.. ha!.. he must be feeling real song... he's offically POPED today.. (Passing Out Parade + the ed).... goin to catch up with him....
Missed him ... missed him.. and missed all my other buds too...

Someone just msned me... someone who i really didn't expect to be still alive... haha.. she shd know what i mean... but it's good... to catch up via the modern technology....

SOmetimes... we tend to look at things on the surface.... everytime.. most of the time.... that's what pple do.. even the wise pple can make this mistake 2.... that's when anger, hate, jealousy and sadness starts...I can guarantee that the person i am today... is surely someone who still makes this kind of mistake... but i'm constantly reminding myself.. not to make this mistake... a mistake whereby we often judge a situation by it's surface...

Coming this problem reminds me of another thing which is usually what human are like... especially gals.... Gals.. as i know.. are the "sensitiest" creature in the world... every slight of move, they'll think of anything... to me, i can't really treat a gal that well anymore as in , they tend to get into misunderstanding.... gals shd know what i mean by this.. but.. to me, i keep asking myself this qn... issn't there really a thing call true friendship between a gal and a guy???? sometimes it's rather frustrating to think that true friendship only occurs within the same sex... whereby it's quite true since the beginning of mankind..

Ha!... this can be considered the longest of all the blog which i've written so far... maybe it's due speaking to that person... sparking up some thinking side of me.. Ha... whatever... I'm still listening to that song... yup.. only that song...

Colours Of The Wind

You think I'm an ignorant savage,
and you've been so many places,
I guess it must be so, but still I cannot see,
How the savage one is me,
How can there be so much that you don't know,
You don't know,

You think you own whatever land you land on,
The Earth is just a dead thing you can claim,
But I know every rock, and tree and creature,
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name,

You think the only people who are people,
Are the people who look and think like you,
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger,
You learn things you never knew, you never knew,

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon?
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest,
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth,
Come roll in all the riches all around you,
And for once, never wonder what they're worth,

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers,
The heron and the otter are my friends,
And we are all connected to each other,
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends,

How high does the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down, then you'll never know,
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon,
whether we are white or copper-skinned,
Can you can sing with all the voices of the mountain?
Can you paint with all the colours of the wind?

You can own the Earth and still,
All you'll own is earth until,
You can paint ,with all the colours of the wind...

2004-03-25T13:42:00.000+08:00

25th March... Thur

Exactly one week since i've last written ..... In school now .. writing this while doing my project... sux... everyweek got one project to present.. Now blogging with my friend.. she's writing hers.. while i'm writing mine.. a new experience...

2004-03-18T20:39:00.000+08:00

18th March.. Thur...

2day seems to be a very very long day for me... time passes so slow... it seemed hectic and bored... it's the slowest day i've ever spent in 2004..... so far.....

Due to the lack of much sleep for the past day, my temper wasn't that good.. so didn't talk for the day... This maths teacher of mine.. keep assuming things... with her big mouth talking to us.. she wanted attention from us.. from all of us when she's teaching... no handphones, no talking, no smiling to gals.. and all other no no nos....

I decided to sleep in her class.. to show her my displease... as a silence protest....

Started playing this new game.. Battlefield: Vietnam.... as usual.. not that fun afterall....

Thought of the day : ASSUMING is an Offence.. IT's one of the greatest mistake pple often make... never assume when you're not 100% sure.... when u assume, It'll only make an ASS out of U and ME(ASSUME)...

2004-03-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

16th march, tue...

Getting rather thoughful these few days... getting quite interested into caring for my friends... treating them with respect, and most of all.. earning it too...Feel like i'm goin to be like a gal soon... becoming too emotional too often nowadays...

Today is my off day.. as usual.. i would spend the day waking up late... just to pump up myself for the rest of the week... presentinG another presentation this week again... this time.. on Botulinum Toxin.. which is used in the botox that pple use to get rid of their ugly wrinkles...

Thought of the day: Respect is something that we earn.. not something that we say.... Respect others be4 u want them to respect u... that's the only way...

2004-03-14T01:11:00.000+08:00

Yup.. Back....
Feeling better than the past few days.......
Got to know all my results... past all... especially my Maths!!...
Haha.. that hav got to be one of the happiest thing this week....

2004-03-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!.....
Only the 3rd day of the week... i'm feeling real real vaxed... fuck... really bad week for me.. bad luck.. everyting is bad.... 3rd year project.. shiet dude... have to consider the topics... fark it.. really fan now... don't annoy me...

2004-03-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

7th march, sun...

End of the week... End of the common test week...

Last paper is on wednesday.. Immunology... It was the easiest one consider the 3 other papers which i've done... Hope that the results will be good....
Thursday---- Went to chalet... learnt mahjong.. finally decided to learn it considering that i had the chance to learn it years ago.. The reason i've decided to learn it is that i was a poker addicted man years ago.. I was afraid that i'd become a gambling pig if i learn mahjong tat time...

Found that it was quite fun also... mahjong i mean....

Tml will be a starting of a hectic week again... Considering that i've to find a 3rd year partner within the first few days... I've to hand up a presentation on Mad Cow Disease on thursday... ~Yup.... this is gonna be a FUN week.... real real fun....

2004-03-02T21:05:00.000+08:00

2nd march, tue

time passes real fast..... march already.... This week's my test week..... hectic week doh.... mentally draining....
I totally screwed up today's paper... hoping that the teacher will overlook my mistake....
For yesterday's paper, which was maths... i was too tensed up... and also... screwed it up....

Not bad huh... seldom see someone screwing papers for the consecutive days....

Tomorrow's my final paper... Immunology.. This paper i'm having the most confident out of the rest 3... which was Maths, Aquaculture and Applied MolecularBiology....

Hope Today's paper is the last i'm goin to screw for this week....

Just gotten the latest album by Jolin... Some of the songs are pretty similar to the earlier ones.... but guessed it... coz from the songs' style, i guessed the songs were written by the same person which wrote for her for the past few albums... Jay Zhou...

Went to check it up.. my guess was confirm.. indeed.. those songs of the similar pattern were indeed written by Jay Zhou... This particular song caught my attention.. Typical Jay Zhou's style...
Name of the song is Track 10 - Dao Dai .... Can check it up..

2004-02-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

26th feb,

Realised something from my past experience.....
Normally... when we are faced with problems... we tend to solve it in the more complex manner... pple tend to overlook that we can also solve problems in a simple manner... whereby.. we simple just have to relax, stay calm and look at the problem with a simple approach.... This usually solve the problem too... well.. it also lessen your stress....

This goes the same for my study methods....
In the past... I used to stress myself and force myself to understand the topics and notes which issn't necessary.... Now.. i look at it with another approach.. which is, whenever i wanna start studying the topic, i'll tell myself... "Joey, nothing is difficult in this world.. you just have to look at it in a simple manner... come on... You're Joey!!!"
Well.. by doin that, i tend to understand things at a faster and more relax manner....
Studying to me now is just like reading story book.. that's my attitude to it... I tell myself.. I wanna learn something new from this "story book"...

Same goes the way in dealing with daily problems.... Don't look at problems in such a complex manner.... Usually, the solution is just as easy like 1 + 1...

2004-02-22T21:25:00.000+08:00

22 feb, sun nite..

Ha.. good.. feeling gr8 liao... glad that flu's gone...all well again.. perhaps i know why it's like tat... for the past few weeks.. i've only had abt 3- 4 hrs of sleep per day... maybe that should teach me something...

I faced a dilemia yesterday... I've got 2 place to go... 1st) my uncle's birthday... 2) go to watch soccer at CHIJMES ...

It was a tough choice indeed... i wanted to go to 2).... but i can't ignore 1) either... i know i had to go to my uncle's birthday no matter what coz this may be his last birthday indeed.. as he's suffering from cancer.. heard from mum tat he's very happy as in he ordered lot's of food and set up a party... it's like.. i don't know how to discribe the feelings... I told mum i wanted to go to 2) ... but she scolded me.. saying tat for me.. friends comes first... which is quite true.. i didn't really argue back..

In the end.. i decided to stay at home... with a really mixed feeling of guilt of not to attend my uncle's birthday party....

Study Break's coming!! which means.. no skool!!!.. gonna rot again.... hai~~~..

2004-02-17T14:19:00.000+08:00

17th feb... Wed...

Still sick.. flu's still with me... Lucky today there's no lesson for me...

Tomorrow there's this SARS practice again.. gonna take temp 2 times a day.... fuck... wonder how am i gonna pass it with my condition now....

God Bless me....

2004-02-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

16th feb... Mon...

Sick... down with flu..

2004-02-14T21:15:00.000+08:00

14th fed, Sat... Valentine's Day

quite long ago since i update my blog.... Reason: Tiredness...

Haha.. tat word tiredness seems to catch up with Joey... seems like we got this tiredness bug in our lecture... coz few of my friend is same as me.. suffering from fatigue...
This week.. i slept wherever i could.. in LTs, bus, games... whatever... as long as there's place.. i could sleep .....

Today.. went to school... came back.. sleep again.. coz no date.. Ha... slept till 7pm.. feeling better now... Went to market for dinner with my parents.... dad and mum.. it's the first time we had a meal together on a dinning table since after chinese new year eve... all of us were bz with our own schedules.... well.. anyway.. it's not really a tradition of my family to dine together everyday....

Now here i am.. rotting here in front of computer....

Waiting to for nite time to come.. so i can go to bed again...

2004-02-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

9th feb .. Mon...

I made a vow here... never to take 174 from orchard back to Boon lay again alone... it's far too long....

Took it since i thought i have the time today.. it's about 4.50 when i boarded the bus.... by the time i reach boon lay.. it's 6.10.. guess how long i've wasted in the damn bus..

Tired on monday... slept 3 hrs yesterday.. wonder why is it that the amt of sleep i'm getting each day is getting lesser and lesser....

Friends played pool while i slept on the sofa ... slept wherever í had the chance....

After talking to my god-sis... i really wonder sometimes....
that relationship issit really a game? or issit a show?.... some pple take it for granted.. while some just treat it as a game.... like it as and when they like... i'm really getting confused with the youngster nowadays.....

2004-02-07T10:29:00.000+08:00

1030 hrs ... Location: In a certain lab which i don't know the no. at blk 40 of Ngee Ann Poly

I'm attending this perl lesson now... I'm more interested in surfing net rather than listening to the boring teacher... coz i simply sux at programing... therefore choose not to waste my time on him.....

I'm damn tired now... kill me someone... release me off my fatigue... for the past few days.. i've only slept 2 hrs a day... perhaps it's due to the nice tv shows at cable...

what i'm waiting now is the arrival of 1100 hrs..

2004-02-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

Oh yea... finally... end of the day...

It's been a tough day for me... energy's been drained by the full day at school, having to say only had 2 hrs of sleep the day be4... School today is from 8am till 6pm... with only 1 hr break....

Maths is getting tougher for me...

Suddenly at this point of time... memories flashed back in my mind... i'm beginning to miss someone again... missing u, missing u and missing u......

Ate mum's curry again.. haha.. it was left over from last nite.... no longer that spicy ... but still nice.....

The thought of open house which is from thursday to saturday makes me happy... it means more rest for me... hahahaha... hope more of these kinda of bo liao things comes....

2004-02-03T21:21:00.000+08:00

Hectic day for Joey... lots of homework..... Maths, Aqua drawings, reports, and Applied molecular biology lab results to be done...

Right now, 2112hrs.. only did 1/3 of all this.....

Mum cook curry for dinner... one of the hottest curry i've ever eaten... 3 hrs past my dinner.. i still feel hot in my stomach... strong huh....

2004-02-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

woke up at 6pm... after a nite of cycling ...

just finished my quiz... online quiz on immunology...

I had to read an articleon it be4 doin it.. The article is an extract on "How the immune system works(2nd ed,2003) Lauren Sompayrac , Blackwell pub, pg 3-13)

well.. the author sux... full of nonsence... rubbish.. waste of time... all on the author using all kinds of example on helping us to understand the main point... well.. just list out the main point and stop all the crap!!!

Don't ever read the book if u don't have the time.....

in the end.. only got 23/30 for it.. not bad.. considering i only read halfway thro the notes...

Tml gonna be a bored day again... holiday..

2004-01-30T20:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i'm with the mice.. today.. fish... o man.. sometimes i wonder if i'm taking a course related to science or animal...

Measured all the 30 fishes in the tanks.. quite lame rite??? but no choice.. i've to to it for the next few weeks.... The fishes are fast growing monster... from A mere 6+cm from the last 2 week to a now of 10cm+ le.. i wonder if human can grow that fast... how would it be...

Getting more and more tired nowadays.. i think it's due to this timetable i'm having this semester... energy draining man.. hope this sememster passes quickly..

2004-01-29T18:36:00.000+08:00

Thursday.. woke up damn early... 830am.. my class is at 8am.First class of the day, immunology... ha! fark it.. give it a miss... went for the 2nd lesson.. maths..

As usual, the Maths teacher was as noisy as be4.. she's is a living shit.. lazy pile of shit... expecting every student to follow up her teaching...

after that... had my practical class.. immunology again...

This time.. i got to inject and dissect white lab mice.... got a drawing of the insides... Not bad.. improved quite a lot on my drawings...

The process of getting the mice killed and dissection, i'm not gonna say it.. way bit digusting... god bless the mice....

2004-01-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

o god....... save me...

pls give me some art talent.... i really need it..... for my fish drawing.....

Doing tutorials .. on drawing fish.... found tat all the fish look alienated... after drawn by my hand... Drew a lot of fishes today.... from catfish to goldfish, to snakehead, to guppies, to grouper, to prawns.. and then to the mussels...

All look alien to me... imagine all those fish with an alienated features... hai~~...

2004-01-25T04:37:00.000+08:00

I'm at my friend's house now... at this hour... 4.36am... Juz have quite a lot of beer.... quite drunk now.. but dunno why am i still so awake.. just feeli8ng a biut of blur..... I'm haveing a bit of difficulity typing... not to ensure hbaving my spellingsa correct....

for the past few days.... i've notg logged on.. firstg dayt of new year... i went to my aunt's place... collected only i think 5 ang bao... i dun care... coz chinese new year's not really a concern for me considering my age... i dun really care abt how much i collect each year..... Tat night i went to chalet ... it's my cousin's boss's chalet... we gamble a bit thjere... most of them are thais' coz it's a thai resturant.... found that thai's arfe especailly friendly.....

2nd day.. went to ah ma's house... gambled too... won qui0te a bit... at night went to watch movie with frenzz.... quite nice... Thbe Last Samurai.... was a nice show.. the female character Taka was quite pretty.... haha....

now.. feeling quitge giddy... bt i',m nopt drunkl... dun say i'm drubnk... not.. i'm not....

2004-01-21T16:48:00.000+08:00

So fast... Chinese new year eve already....

Speaking of that.. reminds me that it's my friend's lunar birthday today.. first of all.. Happy Bday Joan!!.. haha...

basically.. not much feeling of excitement this year...
Just treat it as a holiday .... Hope this year economic picks up.. Ang Pow bIg BIg!!...

gonna have dinner in few hours time.. wonder what mum's cooking tonite... hmm.......

2004-01-19T22:18:00.000+08:00

Quite a lame day... took cab to school.. found that the lecturer is different... this lecturer today a bit blur blur one.. haha.. can bully... but he's my prac teacher...

He just told me something i don't wanna hear... Tat eating salmon fish will cause accumulation of heavy metals in the body.. Eating too much of it makes one dumb and stoopid...

Spoils the brain cells.....

Oh dear.. i said to myself.... I've been eating salmon fishes for the past few weeks.... Simply too delicious....

Anyway.. i choose to believe him... coz he's from the AVA of singapore....

Attended his 2 hrs lec... and then played some basketball... sweaty afternoon.......

No School tomorrow... gonna catch up my school work... !!!

2004-01-18T19:26:00.000+08:00

18th Jan 2004, Sunday.. Cloudy Day...

Boring Day for me....

2004-01-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

Just Reformated my pc... first time i'm doin it... Should be quite good considering me as an computer idoit...

Sis went to thailand yesterday... hope she enjoys herself.. and extend the stay there....

Praying to god... hope she won't scold me for all the lost files she've stored in the computer...

2004-01-16T00:47:00.000+08:00

Damn!!! My pc is down with virus... again...
Maybe it's the retribution of me being such a computer idoit.. not knowing how to fend for m own pc...

The virus causes my Internet Explorer to go bonkers... auto ending it at most of the time...

I'm writing this to try my luck..........

As to see if that virus acts up again while i'm typing this thing....

Shit those viruses.... still thinking of how to solve it....
Fark them...

2004-01-11T16:08:00.000+08:00

Went to Chinatown yesterday

Crowded... as expected.... felt like packed sardines....
New year atmosphere filled the air as there's lots of chinese and was v. noisy.. filled with pple's compaining of the crowd, lots of other pasa malam stuff there...

Saw a couple of pretty sales gal there.. and tiger beer gals there was old... old ladies selling tiger beer.... ee.. dun think anyone will buy...

One thing which i would like to mention is that.. we went to KFC for dinner... halfway through.. i heard a commotion... a lady of abt 50+ years old... was quarrelling with an old man.. who is a staff at there.... that rude lady was scolding and insulting that man... She said a lot of unkind things....

Dammit.. i hate pple who disrespect the elders..... Fark her... i wish i could scold back her.. But there's too much pple... so i just leave that thought out.....

Hope that lady would be like tat elder man in the future... whereby other pple insult back her...

2004-01-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

Today's lab was quite hectic... first one.. AMB(Applied Molecular Biology) was quite rushing... quite a funny one also... I got my first few steps wrong.. but still managed to bluff through it.... My friend's ethanol caught fire... Teacher was calm when she put off the fire.... I don't think she has any expression... Just like when she was giving us instructions.....

2nd lab lesson.. Aquaculture.... Learnt different parts of Prawns( Urgh... quite lame...) got to know how to differentiate what's a male and female prawn... different kinds of display fishes.... Got to see nemos... 2 cute nemos hiding in the anemones(spelling wrong or correct i'm not sure)

Saw a lot of funny fishes... as in the fishes in funny state...

1)Luo Han swimming backstroke..
2)Turtle with extremely short limbs....
3)Prawns eating prawns....( dead ones)
4)Mini lobster trying to get out of the tank...climbing up the sponge( reminds me of WWE's cage match)
5)2 underfed crabs at a basin....

Felt like i'm at the Zi Cha Tua(in hokkien... , which means those kind of hawker stall which sells all kind of food.. be it vegetables, seafood or whatever)

2004-01-08T19:00:00.000+08:00

Hmm... strange thing today...

I've started to listen in my maths class.... asking my friends questions and taking initiative to do the questions....
First time is so many years....

Hope it's a good thing.....

Had the first lab lesson of the week... well.. quite boring....
Had to deal with Microbes again...

Bad news for me... tml i'm having 6 HRS of lab at one go!.... OMG... hope the teacher is fun...

2004-01-06T23:44:00.000+08:00

Tuesday.. my free day..

Coz there's no lesson for me....

just heard from my friend that for my immunology lesson this semester, there's one of this practical class whereby we have to play with lab rats.....

What i meant by playing with lab rats is by killing it... examining with it's dead body.. pretty sadistic huh.....
Heard that there'll be a "crack" sound when u twist the neck of that poor rat.....

Here it goes again.. breaking one of my resolutions..... No. 8) be more kind to animals

I wonder how many cracks will i be able to hear if one joker keep on doing it wrongly..... whereby the poor rat have to suffer...

hmm.... Pretty sian now.... coz tomolo is Wednesday.. got to see tat teacher... that maths teacher... i hate her and she don't like me that much either... always pick on me....
Hope she don't remember me... after i dyed my hair.....
Oh man.. really missed my old classmates.... Hope to see them well tomorrow in the lecture...

2004-01-05T15:24:00.000+08:00

sian ah... School reopen already...

feeling a bit of strange... some new classmates... which i already know them via the past 2 years.. just that they are my classmates now...

Just a strange strange feeling.... of my new class...

Hope it's nothing bad.....

2004-01-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

Just got back from karaoke.. spent a quite a lot of money...
Which also means i've broken 3 resolutions of this year... No.11) Save money, 1)Procrastination( coz i've thought of only starting to save up when school reopens) and 2) Determination....( inability to resist the tempataion to spend)

Had some fun with old sec sch friends outside... Feeling rather tired and upset right now....

Upset that the school is reopening soon!!... many things are yet to be done .... i've not clear my messy messy room.. I make a promise hereby to get it clean tomolo... I'm going to hate Wednesdays for this. The lecture rooms are v. far.... up the slopes of my poly... Don't say i'm lazy... lazy to climb the so call "hill"....

It's just that i'm feel it's very troublesome when i'm late( It's the first lesson of the day, I've a habbit of arriving late) for lectures... have to run..... up the slope... at the far far end of my poly.... for that subject that i hate most ---- Maths...

This is the first time of my holidays that i'm hoping that time don't pass so fast... Monday Monday please don't come... come again another day.... ( i'm refering this to my mind)...

Argh... tat's enough for now... Thinking of maths... it sux....

2004-01-02T13:37:00.000+08:00

Getting quite free these days... just waiting for school to reopen.....

Planned my new year resoultions.... here it is...

ReSoLution of 2004:

1)Stop procrastination
2)Be more determined and focused in doing things...
3)Be less crappy
4)Strive for B+ instead of Cs....
5)Try to understand and tolerate parents
6)Less racist jokes
7)Help out in housework
8)Be more kind to animals
9)Be more friendly and kind to my fellow peers
10)Be respectful to elders and teachers
11)Try to save money
12)Spend more time with family
13)Study hard
14)Nicer Handwriting
15)Speed up in copying work...
16)Get a gal whom i can really confide in

Wishes for the year:

1)Good health for everyone
2)Senior prime minister is still in good health
3)Bush retire as president of USA
4)No tutorials
5)More pocket $$
6)Coffee price don't rise
7)Learn things faster
8)Teacher set wrong exam papers
9)Happiness
10)More good songs
11)More pirated games
12)CD price drops
13)Bank got mistake... got other pple's money into my account
14)Less idoitic pple in my class
15)Improved vocals
16)Ethiopia is not the name we think of whenever we want to waste food

Lots of wishes for this year... Hope it's a jolly well good monkey year.... Realised that health is really very important... that's y i really hope everyone is in good health this year... or rather.. every year.... Last of all...
Happiness to everyone....

2004-01-01T17:11:00.000+08:00

Happy new year Joey....

Tired.... headache... No special feelings today... except that today is thursday... Monday my school starts..

i enjoy schooling... as there's different faces to see everyday... to spark up my life.... But problem now is my new time table really sux.... i hate it... Especially there's maths this semester.... Shit those Maths Whiz!!....

Don't feel like writing anything today... Tat's it for now!!...

2003-12-31T10:51:00.000+08:00

Just saw a news that the suspected case in china is confirmed to be a sars case.....

OMG, why am i always hearing these kind of bad news first thing in the morning... can pull down your whole mood for the day....

Frankly speaking... SARS, i don't really care much about it myself.. I'm not scared, but what i'm just worried about... is the unnecessary fear in pple's mind if there's a real big outbeak again.....

Chain reaction will occur then....

Started to listen to Mayday's Shi Guang Ji album... nothing really special.. except for some better songs, all the rest are quite the same... same old Mayday style....

Goin out later with my pals... Hope to spend the eve in a relaxing manner... just another ordinary day...

Just my hope for the world... for Tml, for the coming year..... Hope tat economic pulls up... most would be with a job, bless everyone with better health.. same as wealth.. better... Bush don't get to war so often for no reason..less of terrorism and may peace and happiness spread around.... Cheers!!